Once I went through trial
clinging on to You,
feeding only on Your word
blocking out all else ……
but then there was
the other way
when mind was blank
and heart was frozen.
Shock was deep and
tangible
…… I prayed ……
and no answer came ……
and fear dug deep
and insanity beckoned
as a welcoming place,
a haven, even.
Were You less near then?
Had You withdrawn,
appalled by my lack of
faith
and trust.
No, no, no ……
You carried me
Your word says so
You still were there
…… even my
abandonment
my letting go Your hand ……
did not mean You let go of mine.